Wednesday, July 28, 2010, 02:42 PM
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Liam is asleep but should wake up anytime now. It's 2:45 in the afternoon. Noah is dead silent downstairs playing with his cars. I am reading blogs.
I spent the morning sending off a blessing dress to Mina that I made for Devyn Ray's blessing this Sunday and then I came home and made lunch for everyone, put Liam down for a nap and cleaned the basement. I hurt my lower back cleaning it all up and it took me about an hour and a half. But it looks good. It was getting kind of crazy down there. I would like to pretend like I don't care about what the basement looks like, but I do. I walk down there everyday to do laundry or a sewing project and the boys just thrash it. I like that I have an area for them to thrash and it's relatively out of sight, but definately not out of mind. I try and let it go for as long as I can put it off, then I get all geared up and put away train sets, pick up every tiny lego that I keep stepping on, organize Noah's "art table" and vacuum all the spiders - my least favorite part. I always sweat and talk to myself like a crazy person as I do that last part. I think I definately have a phobia.
I've got so much more to do. My bedroom is a wreck with luggage I never put away from our weekend trip to Frankenmuth and the house needs to be vacuumed. I need to blog the Frankenmuth trip, the blessing dress, and my trip with the boys to the Ann Arbor Art Fair. I need to clean the kitchen. I need to think baout what I'm going to come up with for dinner and it just started storming outside and of course the backyard is strewn with toys and bikes that are about to be soaked. I really should get up and get started, but I wanted to sit back for a brief moment and just think and rest.
I wonder if other people need that too. I do. I need to sit and think and rest my body. I make so many quick decisions as a mommy that my brain gets tired of moving at that pace. Here's a sample of that pace:
Do I put Liam down now, or try and force him to eat? Will he sleep longer/better if he eats first? Is he too tired to eat? Why is it quiet? What is Noah doing? Maybe I need to eat first, I feel angry and cranky. Should I eat? I need to put Liam down, but where's his blanket? Is his diaper soaked or could it last through his nap? I thought I just changed him ... Where's Noah? OK, Liam is down, what happened to the front room floor? I don't have time for that now, I need to eat - do we have any bread? I have to go to the store and get bread ... and milk and cereal, when do we get paid again? I have to make some bread from scratch, we don't get paid until next week. Wait, I definately need to eat! What's Noah doing?
While all of that is happening I am also walking through the house picking up random things and putting them away.
It's good to sit and write and think and rest. Times up though, it's time to get going ...